When I originally created this site WAY long ago, it was mainly just to mess around with code, then turned into a tool to display some art of mine… this was followed by my wanting to be “heard” or be used as an outlet and NOW it’s become a blog… a blog that I use to post my thoughts, randomly post images, etc… kind of a digital-copy of what goes on in the life of ME.

Now, I’m not saying that I have a lot of visitors here, quite frankly, I don’t care to be honest with you – my writing this is basically as much for you (the read) as it is for me to kind of remind myself of WHAT my goal truly is with OezoInk.com. Upon visiting a few other sites that are ran by a lot of the artists whom I look up to, I’ve been reminded of my abilities, my REAL reasoning behind creating this.

I’ve decided that I will be updating as much as possible, not with random thoughts or shit that’s been bugging me (that’s going to happen anyways lol) but with what I originally came here to do… to display art, to even HELP some folk with how-tos and things of the sort.

My other site, 323studios.com has become my outlet/use for my coding, my learning and using of new standards, but I’ve been mixing the worlds up and I need to go back into separating these worlds of mine and just go ahead and do what I set out to do with BOTH those sites and any future sites.

I hope this helps both myself in getting back on track and try to get you, the reader, to understand my reasoning to have an online presence, hopefully get you guys to come back, ha!

Have a good one!

If you haven’t noticed yet, I live life how I want to live it… in the sense that I’m a good person, I do good on to others, I smile, I laugh, I grab a few beers with friends… you know, essentially living and enjoying the simple things in life.

Sadly, not everyone can say that they’re happy with their situation/s and I’m not here saying that mine’s any better but FUCK! WE ARE ALIVE!

There’s something I learned pretty early on about life and that is that you NEED to be happy before anyone can be happy with you. You need to LOVE yourself before anyone can see the value of loving YOU as a person… I know, I know, you’ve heard it all before and hell, you’ve heard me say it time and time again if you’re one of the unlucky few that hangs out with me here and there.

Do you want the God honest truth about where my life is right now? Ready? HERE IT GOES!

• I’m single.
• I live at home with my mom.
• I’m sleeping on the fucking floor.
• I have a job that only pays me a fraction of what I should be getting.
• I’m up to my eyelids in debt.
• I don’t know WHAT the fuck the pain on my sides are and will most likely never get them checked.
• My back, neck, wrists, elbows, knees, ankles, fingers, right foot, shoulders have ALL seen better days.
• I’ve come to terms that I might have an alcohol problem (I don’t drink enough of it lol)
• I sell myself short.
• I’m nice to EVERYONE until you’ve proven yourself as an asshole that should be dead.
• I’m never happy with ANYTHING I do.
• I’m too smart for my own good.
• I have a fucking mouth and it has NO PROBLEM letting it run wild.

I can honestly make that list go for days, but I believe in this… someone out there has it worse than me by the TON! I know people in relationships that are a sad mess because they know in their hearts that their partner is the worst possible mate to be with – I know people that go to the hospital on a daily basis but only have a few years to live – I know people that are constantly sad and worrying about where their next paycheck is gonna come from! And what do these people do? They bitch and moan about it instead of doing something to better their lives.

I’m TIRED of it! AND IT’S REALLY NOT GOOD FOR YOUR HEALTH!

I’ve been bettering myself little by little, I haven’t been this happy since I was like 22 and I’m 29! I smile every day, I come to work with the intent to make this company grow and function better and every day I implement my ideas.
I would like every single one of you that MIGHT be reading this and look at yourself and remind yourself that YOU’RE ALIVE! YOU LIVE! YOU CAN SMILE! YOU CAN BE HAPPY TOO!

I’ve also come to a realization that this is exactly why people HATE me! In New Jersey, there’s always someone that’s willing to hate on someone that’s smiling, that’s happy, that’s having a good time with their friends… I welcome that shit cause it means I’M DOING SOMETHING RIGHT!

Please, if there’s anything to take away from anything I’ve ever told anyone, take this and remember it: You’re the only one that can make your situation better, you’re the only one that can make yourself truly smile, laugh, and be happy – FUCK EVERYONE ELSE! And if you EVER need to be reminded of this, just come back to this post and re-read it. If you need me to come by and slap you around a bit, I’ll gladly do it!

Adios and have a fucking wonderful day! YOU FUCKING MISERABLE FUCKS! LOL

I’m not the best, I don’t even consider myself good! but I keep getting return customers and they’re all great people that are taking their time and skin and donating it to me in order for me to do something with what I love to do.

Why mention it now? To be honest with you, if I don’t write about it and put it out for the world to see, it’ll never see the light of day cause I’ve been keeping myself real busy with a ton more shit that I need to do in life, but this is going to be a great outlet and a nice way to document my “rise” from being an amature to hopefully one day being someone that’s known in the home.

If you don’t like the idea, I really don’t care, you can eat a dick for all I care. It’s my site, my blog, my rules, my videos.

I’ve always said it, “Whomever is next up for presidency, he/she is going to be running clean-up work for the most part, he/she won’t have enough time to start being a president” and you know what? I’m right in SO many levels.

I’m not into politics, I hate politicians of all caliber as much as I hate the religious groups that try and hammer their believes on to you on a daily basis… but the fact of the matter is, it’s there, it’s a problem, it affects all of us and we STILL can’t do anything about it.

Let’s take Obama for instance, personally (just to cut it short) I think he had a real good shot at doing something amazing as “THE FIRST BLACK PRESIDENT” but it feels as though he was letting EVERYONE around him make decisions for him. He seems scared to voice his opinion and use the power he truly has. We know congress has a lot to do with what he supposedly can or can’t do, but dude… YOU’RE THE FUCKING PRESIDENT, GROW PRESIDENTIAL BALLS! Oh wait, it’s too late… I’d be surprised if he gets re-elected and yes I’d vote for him cause he’s STILL the lesser of both evils!

Let’s go back to Bush, or as I’d like to call him “HICK 5000″. That man is responsible for SO MANY BAD THINGS that went wrong in this country… SO MANY… I don’t know about you (the reader) but before him, I hardly heard about any global crisis, any REAL war, as a matter of fact… we were hated LESS for once in the history of the U.S.A.! Now read what I said, “we were hated LESS” cause the rest of the world doesn’t like us one bit and I can see why. The Bush name came back into presidential power and POW! 911, POW! Jobs are committing suicide, POW! Our president is hated SO MUCH that someone took it upon themselves to THROW A FUCKING SHOE AT HIM! a FUCKING… SHOE! WHO DOES THAT?!

Oh but let us not forget about the great things that were done… Saddam is dead, Osama is dead… uh… hrm… I’m trying to think of what else that’s good for the world that the U.S. President had his hands in it’s planning/execution. If you could think of ANY… please, let me know, I’ll add it to the “really? wtf? took them that long?” list…

Look, plain and simple, every president from Bush’s time and forward are pretty fucked to say the least… there’s SO MUCH to clean… whether it’s the jobs here, the corrupt folk that are running this country, or even the way the rest of the world looks at us… but it’s still going to take a real long time.

I’m glad I’m not a father in these times cause I’d hate for my kid to see the b.s. I see on a daily…

To the current, past and future presidents… Mad Monkey Love for y’all and I wish you nothing but success… and learn from the past presidents, learn from their mistakes first, then learn how they made this CUNTry a bit better every day.

Choke on a peanut…

I’m a HUGE fan of food and drinks and THAT will NEVER CHANGE! No way, no how… but you know what? There are ways of enjoying them still without compromising my well-being and my diet.

I’ve already been on a pill that helps my metabolism, drinking water like it’s going out of style, best of all is my STOP SIGN when it comes to eating after 4 p.m. (unless of course I didn’t eat ANYTHING throughout the day. Then that rule goes out the window) – I’m not counting calories cause I think it’s a waste of time, you either eat right… or you don’t… it’s that simple!

I’ve also started to walk home from work (about 2 miles a day, up and down a PRETTY NICE SIZED HILL). My booze intake has dropped to a minimal and you’ll catch me just drinking Gin and Tonic (3 is my max) with a random shot here and there… but no more than 2 shots… and only on Fridays and Saturdays – pretty nice, right?

As a geek, I’ve incorporated gaming in my workout and it works wonders! Along with sparring with my friend/s here and there – generally, staying active.

OK, all that sounds well and good for a guy that sits at his desk for about 8 hours a day and doesn’t go to the gym… yet… BUT there’s a huge flaw in this, besides staying behind the desk for 8 hours… THE SPEED IN MY EATING!

Technically, you’re supposed to eat rather slowly, but I’m the dumbass that got used to eating like I’m Speedy Gonzales!

“Trick your brain into thinking you ate a ton by eating your tiny meal slowly”

My meals are no bigger than 2 of my fists, but I’m done with those in less than five minutes – THIS IS SOOOOOOO BAD FOR YOU! This is one of the reasons why I have a lot of stomach issues, such as tightness, the wanting to throw up what I just ate, etc…

To be honest with you, I’m quite happy with my body, I just want it to be as healthy as can be, it’s not like I’m obese or anything like that, I can still outrun HALF of the skinny friends I have with no issues what so ever BUT knowing that I can be as healthy as an ox again, I welcome that with open arms!

The moral of today’s story? DON’T EAT FAST! FOLLOW YOUR OWN ADVICE!

The movie is from Sweden and was out on 2009… I’ve seen posters for this movie back when I used to be in NYC almost every day and passed by independent film theaters but never had the chance to stop in and watch EVEN THOUGH the name alone was enough to peak my interest. Not only is this movie actually REALLY FUCKING GOOD, but so is another Swedish movie turned American: “Let The Right One In” which here in the states is known as “Let Me In” and it starred Chloe Moretz (Hit Girl of “Kick Ass” and a ton of other cool movies that we all forgot she was in) which to my surprise wasn’t half bad! I ACTUALLY LIKED THAT MOVIE A LOT!

Back to this awesome flick (and incredible dragon tattoo), this is the type of movie that I want to tell EVERYONE to get on NetFlix and start watching now, but I absolutely HATE suggesting movies because it’s rare for someone to actually have the same taste in “rare flicks” as I do, but if someone was to ask me “was it really that good?” I’d have to say “If I find the blu-ray, I’m buying it…”

I’d LOVE to keep talking about it, but I’m still watching it! Oh and by the way, here’s Noomi Rapace… NUFF SAID!

Now I find myself at work wondering why have I been such a shitty friend and not be there for them?! Why can’t I find the “strength” to be there?!

I was at work when it happened and I was instantly destroyed on the inside, no one was in the office at the time, no one to witness the change in facial expression… but I dealt with it, I didn’t shed a tear, didn’t act up, all I did was take a deep breath and went about my work day as if nothing happened… that was my first mistake…

Later that night, I went home, after a full day of “I have to go, I HAVE TO GO!” but the fear of being weak in front of them kept me away. So the moment that I got back home, I had a moment of silence which led to my breakdown, it finally hit me… Kenny’s gone, Lori and Andy are at home missing their son and brother… even just thinking of it as I write this, it hurts me so much that I haven’t truly been there because of my own selfish thought of not wanting them to see ME like this.

I’m usually pretty good with someone dying unless it’s a family member and that’s just it, Lori and Andy aren’t just friends, I love them like family. If there’s ONE family that NO MATTER WHAT is willing to give you their all, even if they don’t have much to do so, it’s this one…

I’m contemplating leaving work early to go and be with them… I should… knowing me though, I’ll let my chest get tighter and tighter, I’ll do my full day of work, I won’t even mention it to my boss, even though I should.

Kenny K., regardless of EVERYTHING that’s happened in your life, or all the mistakes you’ve made while you were on this earth, you were still a damn good guy and a son that cared a lot about his family.

R.I.P.

UPDATE: I just told my boss…

Going back to the topic at hand, today I came across this write up by Ask Men that talks about the Paleo Diet which is mainly about eating like a caveman, like our ancestors, “straight from the ground!” – I for one do believe in this diet as it reminds me of my time living at a farm and the foods we ate were “homegrown”. I tell ya, farm living made me strong and healthy as an OX, and now that I live in a modern society where everything goes through doctors and processes, I’m as “healthy” and fat as a cow… go figure…

The premise is?

The idea behind the Paleo Diet is to take your eating habits back to how our ancestors ate. Back in the hunter-gatherer days, there weren’t Cheetos, deep-dish frozen pizzas or Doritos available. Instead, humans ate foods that came straight from the ground or straight from the animal.

As a result, they weren’t consuming high levels of saturated fat, sugar, simple carbs, and additives, but instead were enriching their diets with fiber, lean proteins and healthy fats. This combination is what enabled them to keep steady blood-sugar levels, control their hunger and prevent the accumulation of unwanted body fat.

Healthy fats and the few carbohydrates they consumed from freshfruits and vegetables kept them going throughout the day while the amino acids from lean meat replenished their muscle tissues and helped them add more lean muscle mass.

Contrast this to the diets of today, which bring about rapid blood-sugar spikes that lead to a flood of insulin in the body (which just encourages energy lows and body-fat accumulation).

By shunning the foods that cause this chain of events and focusing on all-natural foods instead, you can really turn the tables around as far as your health and body composition is concerned.

The foods allowed?

So what do you eat when using the Paleo Diet approach?

For lean protein, your choices are chicken breast, turkey breast, venison,  and all-game meat, lean beef, wild fish and seafood, and eggs. Dairy is not to be consumed. Also off-limits are any salt-containing protein sources such as deli meat, bacon, hot dogs, and ham, along with those that are extremely high in saturated fat, such as fatty cuts of roast beef and lamb chops.

In addition to your protein, you want to focus on healthy fats from all nuts except peanuts (which are commonly misunderstood to be a nut when they’re actually a legume), natural almond butter, fatty sources of fish, avocados, flax and flax seeds, as well as olive oil in moderation.

Then, to round out the Paleo diet, rely on as many fresh fruits and vegetables as possible. There are no fruits and vegetables off-limits, but you should stay away from potatoes as well as yams. Dried fruit, however, should be limited to no more than two ounces per day, especially for those who are trying to lose body fat.

Diet soda along with coffee, tea, and wine are to be consumed in moderation and one 12-ounce serving of beer or four ounces of spirits are allowed a few times a week.

…if you don’t believe this works, then don’t bother reading anymore… but from personal experience, this is how humans SHOULD be eating, healthy, unprocessed shit, etc…

But if you want to read more on the subject, visit the article at Ask Men

Trust me, I’m the last person to be talking about politics, but this guy’s fuck-ups are PHENOMENAL to say the very least.

I’ve been a resident of New Jersey for a bit over 15 years (I’m not even 30 yet, dammit) and I can’t help but think of leaving NJ for a 3rd world country where getting bitten by a bug with herpaghonnasyphilitis (you know, the Jersey Shore disease) would be welcomed compared to hearing about Chris Christie one more time.

Never in my life has one person been “hated” so much thru-out the U.S., that isn’t a President, than this man right here.

This douche has DESTROYED jobs for many of my friends, went after the educational system (WHO DOES THAT?!), did hardcore budget cuts on our police which in turn made THEM lose their jobs (…hrm… less cops… nice?) and so on.  I know, I know, the people with money LOVE this guy cause he’s all about them; it doesn’t help that everything that comes out of this asshole’s mouth sounds like “let’s screw over the less fortunate and give more to those who already have it 10 times over”.

I wish I could say more about this cunt-rag of a politician but if I went any further, I wouldn’t stop until… well… damn, I really don’t know, there’s so much wrong with this guy, he needs to be stopped! DON’T LET THIS COCK-SUCKER RUN FOR PRESIDENT! I swear, I’ll leave the country, I know way too many people in the tri-state area that would leave in a heartbeat as well, not to mention the many that have heard horror stories of this guy out in the west.

I truly believe that this guy honestly hates us…

Let’s all get our minds straight, STOP THIS SHIT FROM HAPPENING!